I don’t even know if
I believe in love. What does it even mean? No, I am not bitter. But I’m more
afraid to grow old with someone, than to grow old alone. Isn’t that weird? I
know I’m weird.
I want to have my
own personal definition of love. I don’t know my meaning yet but I like that
love is a verb. Obviously, I hate love has the perfect time and place. If you
really love someone, any time and place is perfect. Time and place is
meaningless. People are just too tired to try so they make pathetic excuses
like that.
If you’re not happy
with your relationship, then leave. I don’t get it, why do people cheat? Love
is sometimes so fucked up. But I like that love can be simple and direct.
That’s a good definition of love, too.
I like that love is
not the first three months or the honeymoon period. Love happens when you’re
after that stage. It’s not always happy, sure. But you still own up to it,
because you’ve made a commitment. You don’t give up when things are hard. Heck,
you don’t even give up when things become unbearable. You just make it work. I
knew Train was right when he sang, if
it’s love, we decide if it’s forever, no one else can know it better.
And I’m the farthest
thing from perfect and it’s okay because I’m not looking for someone perfect. I
want someone that will hold my hair when I puke and still kiss me back even if
I reek of vodka and taste like vomit. I want someone spontaneous and
dispensable. I just want someone who won’t run away.